The Happiness Project (Day 6)

Find a reason to be happy

For weeks straight. I have been depressed. I am so down, I don't even feel like trying. Up to this very moment I am writing this, I am still depressed. It's the bitterness reigning over me lately.

and to end all this, I want to be truly honest with myself. I am sad because...

*Mommy has everything she wants. A new car that she promised to give me but never did but instead got one herself. A career. A lover who I hate the most. All the money she needs... And yet, I cannot understand why she can't let me be happy too? She's too proud when handing me money (making me feel even lower than I already am). She won't allow any of my guests in the house whenever she is not around (I have to spend money to host them outside). She doesn't want me to spend quality breakfast time with someone I really want to be with. I feel she's being too selfish.

But I also feel that I am being too narrow.

She deserves everything she has. The car she owns, she earned every bolt. The career she's in, she worked like a donkey to get into. And even if I hate her boyfriend WITH EVERY BONE IN MY BODY, she also has every right to love and be loved.

My mom, even as an uncompromising authoritarian that she is, I love her so much.
I'm happy because she has been blessed with another year of life. Turning 53 today, I can see her standing on the topmost pedestal. My mom is living a wonderful life and I should be happy for her. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE MOST AMAZING MOM IN THE WORLD!

Happiness Project (Day 5)

Day 5

I fell in love with the wild waters

For a sweet escape, I went to a very special place.

Beforehand, I was too depressed. I am having an internal crisis. I didn't think it was possible for me. I was always happy. Always high. This weekend was not for me. I fell. My life was a wreck. 

Who could have thought that the waves will wash away everything? It was definitely a sweet escape. I fell in love with the wild waters. and that love. that love is perfect. 

A beautiful sunset

Happiness Project (Day 4)

The RAIN

I was friggin' cold yesterday. So I called in sick and skipped work. Luckily, or unluckily, for me... the meeting was cancelled. (So wala rin pala. kala ko nakatakas na ko. hahaha!) Anyway, I was compelled to stay at the bed for hours to end. Then I really had to go eat. 

I asked ate amor to buy me chicken... tatay taught me how to cook arroz caldo. 

the photo above is too ambitious.. mine looks a little like this....

and the rain... it suppressed all of my depressions that day. 

Happiness Project (Day 3)

Day 3

Finding yourself a new motto

Don't Quit 

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

- Author unknown

 

My Happiness Project (Day 1)

Day 1

Appreciate a new music

RESHMONU’S THE WAY IT MAKES YOU MOVE

It’s actually 3 AM and I am still enjoying the sound of this new high. It makes me happy because it makes me want to dance…even in the wee hours of the night.

"I like the way it makes you move… the way it makes you move…the way ot makes you move."

It’s on replay, baby.

The way it makes you move

My Happiness Project

Today, I commit to look back at the little things that makes me happy. 

This is my own happiness project.  

As much as possible, I want to savor every piece of beautiful memory.

For 365 days, my blog will house life's simple pleasures like a beautiful song, a walk with your loved one, the drizzle of the cold rain, an ice cream shared with your dad... those kind of things. 

Life could be too short.