The Happiness Project (Day 6)

Find a reason to be happy

For weeks straight. I have been depressed. I am so down, I don't even feel like trying. Up to this very moment I am writing this, I am still depressed. It's the bitterness reigning over me lately.

and to end all this, I want to be truly honest with myself. I am sad because...

*Mommy has everything she wants. A new car that she promised to give me but never did but instead got one herself. A career. A lover who I hate the most. All the money she needs... And yet, I cannot understand why she can't let me be happy too? She's too proud when handing me money (making me feel even lower than I already am). She won't allow any of my guests in the house whenever she is not around (I have to spend money to host them outside). She doesn't want me to spend quality breakfast time with someone I really want to be with. I feel she's being too selfish.

But I also feel that I am being too narrow.

She deserves everything she has. The car she owns, she earned every bolt. The career she's in, she worked like a donkey to get into. And even if I hate her boyfriend WITH EVERY BONE IN MY BODY, she also has every right to love and be loved.

My mom, even as an uncompromising authoritarian that she is, I love her so much.
I'm happy because she has been blessed with another year of life. Turning 53 today, I can see her standing on the topmost pedestal. My mom is living a wonderful life and I should be happy for her. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE MOST AMAZING MOM IN THE WORLD!

Happiness Project (Day 5)

Day 5

I fell in love with the wild waters

For a sweet escape, I went to a very special place.

Beforehand, I was too depressed. I am having an internal crisis. I didn't think it was possible for me. I was always happy. Always high. This weekend was not for me. I fell. My life was a wreck. 

Who could have thought that the waves will wash away everything? It was definitely a sweet escape. I fell in love with the wild waters. and that love. that love is perfect. 

A beautiful sunset

Happiness Project (Day 4)

The RAIN

I was friggin' cold yesterday. So I called in sick and skipped work. Luckily, or unluckily, for me... the meeting was cancelled. (So wala rin pala. kala ko nakatakas na ko. hahaha!) Anyway, I was compelled to stay at the bed for hours to end. Then I really had to go eat. 

I asked ate amor to buy me chicken... tatay taught me how to cook arroz caldo. 

the photo above is too ambitious.. mine looks a little like this....

and the rain... it suppressed all of my depressions that day. 

My Happiness Project (Day 1)

Day 1

Appreciate a new music

RESHMONU’S THE WAY IT MAKES YOU MOVE

It’s actually 3 AM and I am still enjoying the sound of this new high. It makes me happy because it makes me want to dance…even in the wee hours of the night.

"I like the way it makes you move… the way it makes you move…the way ot makes you move."

It’s on replay, baby.

The way it makes you move

MASAYA AKO NGAYON

oo sobrang saya ko. at wag ka an magtanong dahil hindi ko rin alam kung bakit. ituturing ko itong blessing dahil minsan ka lang sasaya ng walang dahilan.

IM HAPPY JUST BECAUSE ....

Ewan, gusto ko magshare ng kaligayahan ko. Mahirap kasi maging malungkot sa panahon na ito. halos lahat ng tao busy at stressed. Wala ng time maging malungkot. wala rin time para magkasakit. wala na time para sa lahat. Pero sa kaligayahan. di ka pede maubusan ng time dyan. DAhil pag wala ka ng time para sumaya, para san pa't ginagawa mo yang mga ginagawa mo kung ano man yan pare?

Isang tip, palibutan niyo ang sarili niyo ng kulay DILAW! isa yang suspek kung bakit ako masaya ngayon. Kung iikutin mo ang kwarto ko, puro dilaw. dilaw lahat. literal. Kaya pakiramdam ko Im so sunny!

pangalawa, wag na kayo magiisip ng mga malulungkot ng thoughts. Lahat masaya. Kahit nagiintay ka sa isang mahabang pila, wag ka maiinip. Naku, wag mo gagayahin yung mga matatandang wala na ginawa kundi magreklamo. Basta ikaw masaya ka.

pangatlo, mahalin mo ang mga bagay sa paligid mo. MAgpatawad ka agad. :) Ang hirap ipaliwanag nito e. pero siguro alam mo na yun.

BE EXCITED about things about to happen. that will keep you longing for the days to come. One reason to stay alive. :)